Heaven

I wish we could see into Heaven.  Don't you?


Heaven

I can see a Place
where all can sing
as we worship King
any language
color, short, tall
absolutely no baggage
loved one and all.

{hugs},
Shea

Sugar and Sweet Forgiveness

Tonight was not good.  I knew I shouldn't eat the doughnuts.  I knew it! I can tell you all the evil sugar does to my body and yet when the urge to binge hits, my eyes roll back into my head and I dive head first into the sugar bowl.

When I come to, I find myself in a self-induced sugar high.  It is a gross, thick feeling in my head and body.  This is not exactly becoming behavior for a holistic health coach.  I know lots of the facts about how bad sugar is for me and yet....there are times when I choose poorly.

So there you have my true confession:  I eat sugar.  I wish I could be stronger.  I do really good most of the time and I slipped tonight.  My consequences will be the crash that is coming soon and the intense sugar cravings I'll have to battle tomorrow. Yuck.

It is going to be OK though because  I get a brand new slate tomorrow just like you do!  What good news.  I don't need to beat myself up. There are lessons to be learned tonight.  I can remember how awful I felt tonight and how good I feel without sugar in my body and most importantly I can forgive myself and move on.

{hugs} for me and you,
Shea

Light for the Path

It has been the month of eating chocolate bars in an effort to feel better about my life. (I do actually eat other food, so don't worry that I am not well somehow :)  I find myself lost at  times.  And then out of the blue, I see some light.  It came in the form of a hike.

Husband offered to take the six of us out to Columbia Trail.  It was an invitation to whomever might want to come, no demands were made.  It was freeing.  Everyone chose to go and because the choice was theirs it was a hike with great attitudes.

On the way down the trail the sun had set and this was the very last bit of light available before absolute darkness fell on us.  But we had enough light to get to the van.  Just enough.  Not a drop extra.

It seems like that in my world too at the moment.  Psalms 119:105 says it like this: Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path.  I have enough light for my feet.  I can't see what is coming so I must keep my eyes trained on the path that I can see.  It is tough.  I believe it will be worth it.  I pray that this time of my life will be used somehow someway for other women who hurt.  You aren't alone.  I'm not either.  I have just enough light to find the chocolate bar  path.

{hugs},
Shea

Soul Food

This is warm chocolate to my soul, this is a new pair of shoes that fit perfectly, this is gorgeous, this is where I live.

I get Wednesdays to myself. This Wednesday I decided to hike around on Big Mountain.   I took the main hiking trail up and along the way found a little seat with this view.  I had found what I was looking for and I sat and enjoyed and breathed.

Warm chocolate to my heart.

Unlikely Spots

I found this heart in the most unlikely spot. It was laying in the parking lot of Target while my girls and I were shopping for Homecoming clothing.   It reminded me that love comes in unlikely ways.  That doesn't make it less meaningful just more of a surprise.

Then I did my civic duty and picked the trash up to throw away and that ended the Hallmark moment right there.  Oh well.

Today's Chocolate made me...

...more grateful or should it be great-full?  I am grateful for my life and I am full of great.  I think both could be true of all of us on any given day.  We are an amazing bunch.

I love you so much, Mom.

Her newest little thing to say to her Dad and I is, "I love you so much, Mom".  It is precious and it is a reminder that I do have a chocolate covered life with her in it.  She is most certainly a lot of work at three but when she says things like that, how can I not melt?  It makes it all worth it.  It is a chocolate moment to remember that is as smooth and sweet in my memory as the best chocolate I eat.  Better, I suppose, because it is calorie free.